Meera sings

Meera sings
Krishna poems
Dr suvarna nalapat

CONTENTS
1.You and I
2.Krishna
3.Guru and Vayu
4.January blossoms
5.the ocean of nectar
6.footsteps of Krishna
7.Krishna
8.life and death
9.Mera sings
10The fourth state(thureeya)
11.kaaliya
12.Krishna
13.Brahmavidya
14.Meera’s life
15.Rugmani
16.swayamvara
17.Not a dream
18.kubja
19.The messenger and the message



















1.You and I

I am a blue pearl decorating a blue body
A peacock feather in a soft crown
Starry garland in a shining hair.
I am soft music within a lovely flute
Awakened into a golden wavy ocean
A golden yellow silky garment
Waving in breeze in a raasa dance.


My throat and heart pains,stifled
Remembering a lost familiar song
And a lost face through thousands of births
I have known the essence of art
From a smiling face of a cowherd
Hey,Giridhar Krishna,
The one who stole Meera’s mind,
You are everything
You are me
And I you,
Aham Brahmasmi is just a word
When we are one
In a split second of ecstacy.

A golden star beyond,
A waveless ocean within
A thousand petalled lotus blooms
Blissful moments passby,unending.
I wait patiently forever
To offer the timeless garland of yugaas
At your feet when you come!
Listening only to Thy music
I have become a star to merge in your blue expanse.
The music,the flower,the bliss personified,
The earth and heaven

And the meghmalhar
Awakened in your flute
The knowledge beyond all knowledge
The aesthetics of anesthesia
The consciousness within you
Which has lost its consciousness
Of you and me
In a final laya!!!

2.Krishna
In my daydreams
I saw you within.The sweet voice,
Golden garments
And the peacock feather
And flute.
The sky as a blue jewel
And golden starry diamonds
Jasmine smell beyond a green foliage
Dancing brook’s jingling bells
Rhythmic footprints of my cowherd
In every nook and corner
In every sand particle
Every season
Every moment.
I bathe in its pure beauty
I hum only the raga”Krishna”
I chant only the manthra “Krishna”
I light only the lamp of your love
To enter the ocean of Brahma
As if a river in passionate love.

The chariot speds,time pass
Dusty smoke spreads
Sky and eyes are cloudy.
Vrindavan disappears
Kaalindi cries.
And you have left.
On your path bloom a
Thousand farm flowers
Sweet and fragrant as mine
.I haven’t known time.
I have turned old,
They say.
Then you return
As my Guru,my lifebreath
How can I sing without my Guru and lifebreath?
How can I live without them.
You have never left
You are everywhere
In everything,everyone
And in me too.
I know you
And love you
And live in you for you.
Singing,loving,
Your presence enriching my being
Oh,Krishna!!!

3.January blossoms
January blossoms,
Trying to catch the sun
To touch the moon
And the brilliant stars.

The twigs could not touch
The waves of ecstacy moved on.
Yet it spread around
Enwrapping every cell
Every moment,with an ecstacy of
Unfulfilled love,

The fragrance of her own petals
The sweetness of her own secret love
Bathed her life in an unending soft music
The music divine
The music of Krishna
The eternal lover.

4.The ocean of nectar

Is love poison?
For me it is nectar.
When body and passions enter
Love becomes poison
Love is not in body-mind realm
Which they call annamaya,manomaya,
It is ecstacy ,
Pure consciousness,
Bliss,anandamaya.
There is only sweet soft joy in it.The sky,the ocean,the rising sun
I enjoy without a label “Mine”
My love is like a sugarcube
Eaten by the dumb,
An ocean of nectar
In which I float,drown and and live
Unknown to anyone.

5.Footsteps of Krishna
A crowded lane,
You walked along,
With your retinue,
I waited on the side
For you to pass,
I heard your footsteps
In my heartbeats.
Suddenly ,
To my surprise,
And joy
You looked up
And in those deep yogic eyes
I saw the brightness of love
The sweetness of longing.
My heart missed a beat
And your footsteps lost.
The world had changed
I don’t know why and how!!!
My Krishna!

6.Krishna
Dewdrop waited
For his coming.
The light footsteps
The jingling bells
The sweet familiar melody of his flute.
He came
Without a sign,
In silence.
She saw him within ,
A thousandrayed sun reflected
And lost her identity in him.
Only nothingness remained,
Only her Krishna,
And his eternal music.

7.Life and death.
You are calling me,Krishna,
The yearning in it scorches me.
But forgive,
Your Radha cannot meet you.
Not because of you,but of me.
The years of sadhana
Austerities
Life of tapasya to attain you
I might loose all
In your scorching dazzling brightness,
My sun!
Yet I wait,
For the final laya
The death for my I
And life for our I.

8.Meera sings.
My blue jewel Krishna
The eternal ocean of light and ecstacy .
When I try to grab you
You escape like a golden wave,
Away,away….
From my greedy hand,my thirsty mind.
When you sing
I swim in an ocean
Of ecstacy
And my naughty cowherd
You embrace my mind,intellect and soul
Fill my soul with a deep sweet
milky ocean
Make me a wandering wave
Within you,
Then I know
Iam you
My Krishna,
I am the wave
And the ocean
And the etrnal listener
In you.


8.The fuorth state(thureeya)
I am Meera,
The dasi of Giridhar.
In my childhood
I saw him in idol
Put flowers on his body
Talked to him
Sang to him
And danced for him.
In youth
He became my lover.
I dreamt of a gandharva marriage
My mind became his abode/
Now ,
In old age,
I see him as rishi
My world has changed
With his coming
I cant see him
I cant see a separate me
There is only one
And that one is
I
Aham Brahmasmi.
The three stages
Morning,noon,evening
The sun has scaled my life
And I wait for the fourth
The thureeya
Where night
The pralaya of existence
Merge everything
In an embrace forever!

9.An offering
The sparks of love
The beads of prayer
The flowers of my heart
Fruits of my brain
I offer to you
My Krishna.
I thought I am vairagini
To my surprise
You proved
I am raagini.
How could it happen!
Sabari cant be Radha.
Gargi cant be satyabhama.
Then
Why do you play this
hide and seek?
My life is yours
I offer it to you.
Do not play with my passions
Take my compassion
And enjoy
Bliss of existence
Pure and eternal.

10.Kaaliya

He lived in kalindi
And you,the ocean of love
Called him for battle.
Krishna,
Your soft red feet
Like a newly opened flower
Made kadamba tree bloom
In a wave of ecstacy.
When you jumped into kalindi
She heaved a high wave
Of delight
Embracing your little body
Milky foams of love
Splashed
In her heaving bosom
Motherhood celebrating
The presence of Narayana
,as the celestial Nari,
Narayani.
Kaliya,
The cruel hatred
With a athousand hoods
Fire in them
Like a black volcano.
Ego and power
Constricting
A soft little body
.gokulam in terror
looked on
cries stifled
prayers unuttered
and you came out
unscathed
dancing feet,
jingling bells

we saw you dance
on banks of kalindi
on banks of milky way
in our hearts.
Singer ssing thy glory
Dancers dance with you
Earrings shine on cheeks
Drops of water
As silvery beads
The dance continue through ages
Cosmic rhythms
Embracing humble heads
Lowering the egoistic ones
.the raaginis come
see you
love you
pray for kaaliya.
“oh ,Krishna,
we heard of you
in childhood
thought of you
day ,night
loved you
bound by samsara,
the kaaliya
we know only him,
the kitchen
the attic
and he say we are His.
We know
We are yours.
A thousand housechores
Small simple
But many
Nonending
Keep us away from you.
We have no permission
To come to you.
Yet we dream of
That soft feet
Sacred to sages
Light lamps for your love.
Ocean of peace,
Love,bliss,
We know no veda
Nor geetha
Or scriptures.
We know only this samsara
And our love for you.
We cant live with this
Bondage
We have no desires
Just to love you
To see you
We need the samsara.

Give us back
The bondage
Bind us with the kaaliya
Of samsara
We prisoners
Only can dream
Of liberation
Can hope for a new day.

No bondage
No more dreams
Give back our dreams.
We decorate you with
Jewels on our thousand hoods
We embrace you in ecstacy of dreams
Our Love touch you
As breeze
Soft raagaa
Our ecstacy is
In search of you
The ocean of nectar.
Krishna,
Our raincloud,
We decorate you
With love
For a thousand janma
We drink the fire
Of samsara.
you are fire
We drink it
Internalize you.
Kindle that fire in us
We have to be fire
To be one with you
Krishna ,
Give back kaliya,
Our bondage
Our rajjusarpa,
The fiery serpent of suffering
To know you.


11 krishna
krish is earth
na is ecstacy
Krishna,
The ecstacy of earth.
Kris is earth
Th pathos
Christ takes away
Pathos from earth.
One gives ecstacy
One takes away suffering.
How can one give ecstacy
Without removing suffering?
Is it not
Two sides of the same coin?
Krishna,Christ
Cant see any difference
Why should one convert
When there is no second?
Only Brahma exists.







12.Brahmavidya
Krishna,
How many times
You came?
As my son,lover,
Guru ,father?
My mother,sister,
Brother,neighbour?
Janmaas rolled by
I saw you in me
With me
In every janma
Every yuga
Kalpa
I lost my egi in you
Everything
Gold and blue
Colour of you
Love of yours only
Everywhere
In flowing rivers
Rainclouds
Smile of a baby
Love of my dear ones
Everywhere e
Your face only.
Did you ever know
My love?
When I made garlands
To decorate you?
When I sang for you?
When I meditate on you?
And wrote on you?
Speak on you?
Which one you like best?
My childhood love?
Or these?
In all forms
Names
I see you
I cant hurt a jeeva
I might hurt you,then.
I cant hate anyone
Lest I may hate you.
I love the world
Since it is you.
And I love me too
Since I am you,
My Krishna!

13Meera

.I am Meera,
Meera rathod
Bhoja’s wife
Sisodia’s daughter-in-law
Historians say.
But who is rathod
And who bhoja
The sisodias?
I never knew.

I knew only a blue cloud
Shining
As a thousand suns
Within me
Captivating
Pouring out
Love in rapture
And a sweet melody
Pervading my being.
In infancy
He was idol
To play with
Talk
And decorate.
In youth
Everlasting fountain
Of love
Beauty
Celebration of
A womans
Love for man.
A melody remembered
Through janmaas
And internalized.
The twilight have come
Death near
He is still there
Smiling
Very near
I see my best friend
Philosopher
Guru
Soul of my soul
Mind of my mind
Intellect of my intellect
Me within me
In that advaitha
I know noone else.
I realized
My true self,
Krishna.
I merge in his
Blissful waters
Of love
Of pralaya
Purest of pure
Sweetest of sweetest
Where no Meera
Exists
Only Krishna.
Then I smile
When they say

I am Meera Rathod
Wedded to some Bhoja
Of sisodia.
I am Krishna
,I am Meera’s lover.
How can I be Bhoja’s wife?




14 Rugmani


I count yaama
Of each night
As rudraakdha,waiting.
Then I heard your
Lotus feet
Touching my village
The green grass
Shining as your body
On my sapathni,earth
Beautiful.
I embraced her
Forgetting my envy.
Wore garments
Of swayamvaradurga
To meet you.
Carrying honey of love
In my face and mind
Pure as fullmoon

Clad in white clouds
I came to temple
Of Shivaa,
Your sister.
Without her love
Who can drink
Nectar of eternity
Of Achyutha?
I left my palace
My relatives
Nine doors of body
Ego
And reaced you’
As Jeevathma
To merge
In paramathma.
When we met
The first sight,
You watching me with
Your starry skyface
I watching the stars of your
Twinkling eyes
Naughty.
I see them
Day and night
In dhyana
Eyes open
Or closed,
Nothing else
I see
Nothing else
I remember.
Then ,
That look,
You made me yours
As if the sun
His ray,
You ,the nirguna
Nischala
Knew my thriguna
My gathi,
Gamaka,
My Geetha,
Nirayana becoming
Saayana
Brahma knowing
His prakrithy
Brihat knowing
His Rathanthara
Sree and sreenivaasa.
We are one.

15.swayamvara
I am veena
Singing,
Wandering
Looking for my Hari
Can my naada invoke my Lord?
His footprints engraved
On lotus of my heart
His sight bringing
Tears of joy to my eyes
Will he come just for me?
I yearn.

When he comes
I sing
A galand of raga
Just for him.
He is the pranava
In the conch of my throat.
Rain of nectar
In my nerves
Santhimanthra
In bow of thoughts
My love,
As burning Agneya arrow
Empty the ocean
Of samsaara.
I merge as a sigh
In a blue bosom
My ego makes
Sreevalsa
On a blue sky
My arms
Vanamala
On his shoulders
I have entwined
Hari on my bosom
With mangalyasoothra
Forever
Forever.


16.not a dream

I saw a blue body
In dark eyes of night.
When I garlanded with Tulsi
Embraced
I lost myself.
The starry umbrella
Opened
Beneath it
His kind eyes,
I saw.
The pearl
The syamanthaka jewel
The Guru of my dreams arose
From yoganidra
On his sacred bed
In milky way
The eternal ocean.
I saw my friend
And lover
The most beautiful
HARI
It is not a lie
Not a dream
Not maya
Not fun
Not even a story
It is truth
I saw my Hari.

17.kubja
my love
is fire
I have lost my wings
In it.
Burned myself
In it.
To fill my being
With your music
My mind
Became yamuna.
You,
The blue kadamba tree
On its banks
My mind,sky
And you
The dark cloud
On its bosom.
My desire for truth
Stifled a cry
I have lost
My identity
In you
Your touch
Burned my body.
Eight curves
In my body
Straightened.
In my mind’s pond
You bloom,
A blue lotus.
In you
yellow stamens
shine
as garments.
heart
A golden ocean
Words
Cant enter
In it
And I have
Become you.
In a fire
Of love
We have fallen
Closing
Our wings.

18.Messenger and message

you never came
I waited
In silence
In gokul
And thought
You will come.
In to my silence
Into my loneliness
You came
A rich shower
of naada
And swara.
You sent Udhav
To see my mind
My weaknesses
My strengths
He saw your sign
In me
In my life
And work.
In my heart
In my soul.
The secret I kept
Is no more
Secret.
Why did you engrave
Your signature
In my mind’s
Palmleaf?
How did you fill
This conch
With
Your pranava?
Your lovely presence
Made my race
Purest.
All of us dance
To your rhythm
Offer our lives
To you
As sweet nothings
When we fill
Our minds
With nectar
Of poetry
I dry my eyes
Enjoy melody
Of life.
I wait in all
Even in kubja
You call me to
Heavens
And starry beds
Where I see
Timespace
As bubble
And you
Within
My heart.
The heart’s lotus
May fade
Disappear
In timespace
Fragrance in it
Spread
And live forever

The words
I engrave
Last forever
Because
You are
Beyond timespace
Eternal
What I utter
What I engrave
What I heard
Is you
And yours
And is
Eternal’
In our rasleela
Dark nights come down
As long hair
Of Radha
In your leela
Rain falls
As drops of sweat
Your learned message
Fills me with
Ecstacy
Eternal santhi
This will last
Forever
The message
Engraved within
By your pen
Is known
To udhav
Your messenger
It has become eternal.
What did you
Tell him
“My Radha,
my beloved
my friend
who knew
my”silent love”
I hear the message
In silent sky
.when shall we meet?
When this body
The wall between us
Fall?
I wait for that day.
When I merge with you
There will be only “I”

People call it death
For me
It is life
Eternal life
Within you
Within me
For that day
I engraved
Your image
On body,this wall.
Keep mind pure
Your home.
I grow tress
Of scince,arts
Veda and ethics
Aesthetics
Anesthetics
In its courtyard,
Kalpa trees
Of intelligence
Shower flowers
In your path
When you come
In each janma
.In death
the final layana
we know each other
my creativity became
your flute
in your thought’s pyre
my bodyconsciousness lost
I become pure athma
Pure sathi
Of pure sath
Your message became
Ecstacy of
Eternal
Love!
19.